Sometimes, our biggest fight is with ourselves.
Now that's 2012 is about to end, I'm thinking about what I learned. It wasn't a bad year. I reached my goals, though everything didn't go as smoothly and perfect as I wanted. I'm having a huge economical pressure, but I've got independence. And I don't want to go back to my parents house UXD I've learned a lot about friendship and love, through personal experiences and through other friends... I´ve faced some situations that dissapointed me a lot. But the most important thing, is that I learned a lot about me.
I've started the year feeling very depressed. Thinking that I wasn't good enough to live as an artist, or maybe that I wasn't good enough for nothing. I was searching a job desperately, (I even did a waitress course) and it took my time to notice that I only found jobs easily in the artistic area.
But even then, something was still wrong with me, becouse I keep thinking that I wasn't good enough drawing, that my efforts were in vain, and when something good would happen to me, something terribly bad was waiting just around the corner. And with that kind of thoughts in mind, who would be able to fight?
I've had projects and ideas, but I wasn't brave enough to work on them. Is like having a voice inside of you, telling constantly that you're not good enough, that nobody likes you, that trying is useless...
It was hard for me to admit that I've had a huge problem and that I need some help.
Today I'm fighting hard to earn self-esteem and to love myself and what I do.
Sorry for my bad english. But I only want to say that the most important thing we must do, is to love ourselves, becouse without that is impossible to find what we are really able to do. Depression, low self-esteem, anxiety, are common monsters, so common that maybe we don't even know that they are there bugging us, and we don't fight them.
SO GO AND FIGHT!